RPP: Best Year Ever (18)

[Ahoy]

I hear you, rpp! At some point we really do drop the rope. I had a lunch meeting with my H yesterday to fill in the affidavit, and I had not a shred of attraction for him -- not in how he looked or who he was as a person. He was perfectly amicable, and we were able to laugh a bit and talk about D14, but he is just no longer my husband (even though we're still married). The paperwork is just the logistics.
The flowers and kiss thing are, I think, weird. What is that about?
My H gave me flowers and champagne a while back (after my scary dr. appointment last fall). They were to assuage his guilt. They didn't mean anything to me. He knows better than to try to kiss me. I am not open to that. I don't even hug him anymore, and I don't want him to touch me. I don't say those things to him though.
Because of his actions, he no longer has access to me -- either physically or emotionally. I can do the friendly banter with him, but no deep access to thoughts.