The awakening of me Part 3

[mleigh4]

Not much to update. Wednesday night H picked up S from his mom's and handled dinner and homework at his place. They showed up about 8:30 at my place to drop off S. Was interesting, H usually will TM that they are on their way. H said he forgot his phone at home, kind of threw me off when they walked in. Good thing I didnt have my hottie boyfriend here! Lol, ya right!

Thursday night I get a TM from H asking if S realized he forgot his grammy's birthday gift of cash at his place. I let him know he had realized it the night before. H said to tell S he spent it all on fruity pebbles. I thought to myself, this is my H free night. You moved so you could be away from horrible me, so go be alone. I am not sure why that came over me, but it did so I didn't respond

Tonight, Friday, I get a TM saying he would love to spend some time with S this weekend and threw out some ideas. I told him of course, and asked if he wanted to talk to S or want me to ask him? I mean really, I'm not his messenger. He replied, he just got home and would call S after he cleaned up. That made me laugh. You need to clean up first? Annoying and I don't know, BS? H called about 1 1/2 hours later and made their plans. I let S answer phone, did not talk to H.

I see with myself, the more fun we all have together, the more I pull away after. I don't want to get sucked in to his game. It's safer staying detached and distant. I only want to deal with H in regards to S, and only when needed. I figure, you left, go figure yourself out and leave us alone. I guess that is part of my detachment process.