Old dog seeks new trick 10

[Old Dog]

This, from Underdog, is from Maybell's thread and it's something I need to address too.

I wonder why I chose to overlook my feelings that something was amiss in my marriage? I wonder why I felt it was in my best interest not to ask more direct questions and get answers, because it's important to me to have truth in my marriage.

Because I was afraid. I was afraid of rocking the boat, of disturbing the equilibrium, even if it wasn't right, getting it wrong, making a fool of myself, being embarrassed, rejection, abandonment, not being good enough

... and change.

All of those things have happened now and I was right to fear them, it is a terrible terrible feeling, but wrong not to do more about fixing them.

I hear many business people say failure is a learning curve. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself down and go again.