Old dog seeks new trick 10

[Old Dog]

RP. I know I know. I didn't know it was a PA. I assumed so but now I do know. It was just so hard reading the the cards instead of just knowing.

I feel such a failure because I didn't do those things.

I don't know if I'm nearer making a decision. I am unable to make any kind of decision. I am stil living in hope I guess. My plan was to get a job, move back in, work on myself and show her I am capable of being a loving person.

I don't know if can do that now.