Not Confused...Insane in the Membrane

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So just an update -

I did nothing about my feelings regarding my dream and went through the longings trying to understand why I felt the way I did. Fortunately, life got really busy and I forgot it ever happened...until I just caught up on my own post. LOL

Well, STB-Ex has been reasonable and slightly communicative since his break up from OW. No name calling, no arguing, and no demeaning. Just text here and there regarding the kids, which he seems to be re-building his relationship with. He has also (twice now) been open to taking care of/visiting with the kids not on his parenting time. Some other good things like him paying support instead of avoiding it and he just contacted me a week ago regarding the kids being added to his health insurance.

This has been an easy three months for me...PEACE! I really do hope that things can continue on like this, but I have no expectations.

I am finalizing my "ducks" for the divorce...MESP hearing is set for April. I am hoping that will be the day.

Everything feels bitter sweet right now. Happy/Sad for the End. I can honestly say that I do love my Ex, but I could never be with him again. I hope that our divorce brings about peace for him too. I hope he finds his way in his life. And I hope that one day we can be in each others lives as two people who knew each other a long time ago...friends.

So that's about it for the update, life has been going on...I've been busy with my job, my friends, my family, and...dating.

Life is good, other than this dreaded white stuff (snow0 that keeps falling by the truck loads in our area. I can't wait for SPRING!!!!