I can relate to being allergic to WAW. If it's what you need to do to feel better though, I agree, don't be in contact. It helps me too. Just do what you have to, and no more than that for now. The mindset of having almost indifference in your contact with your WAW, particularly when your emotions say otherwise is a difficult one to put into practice but crucial. I've told my WAW that I can't see her in person, all I see is her in a thousand family photos and memories of good times. It's too painful now I know that a D is coming for sure.
You should speak to your doctor about meds as they've also helped me. Obviously, they only take the edge off, they're no magic pill but hey, anything that helps, helps...right. You need to shake that cold/flu off ASAP too!!
As far as being places and it's painful when you associate better times with them, wouldn't it be better to think of those times and use them to lift your spirits?
What I mean to say is those times were real moments in history, in all your lives. Just because of your sitch doesn't mean they were any less real or they're being erased in some way. I try to look at these things for what they are...fond memories of a good life. OK, things have changed - they'll change again too, that's what life's all about.
I know it's all very well being philosophical about things (you know all these things yourself already), it's actually doing it that's hard.
You hang in there Mozza, things will improve for you one day.
Barry
Me 40 W 38 T 23 M 21 S21 S19 D16 S14 BD 19/12/2014 D mentioned 27/2/2015. I filed 08/04/2015, D Absolute 04/11/2015
