hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

We had a short but somewhat revealing conversation this morning, and maybe this is real.

She was again wondering what I was thinking so I told her that sometimes I wish we could just run away and start over. She said she was sorry and she wouldn't blame me if I wanted to rethink everything and leave her to her messes.

I told her that I know that would not be what I wanted. I want it all back, but I am having trouble re-building the confidence in ourselves.

She said she was sorry again and told me she does not want to run away. she wants our lives, with me, D15, S17, and S20 if he ever comes back. She said she wants our imperfect life back.

I told her I still believe what I told her 21 years ago (for better or for worse). She hugged me, ILY and had to go.

She's in there somewhere, and starting to come out, I think. I think it is time to tell her what I will need to rebuild my confidence in us.