Losing hope for MR reconciliation.

W continues to treat me with lack of respect. Constant demeaning in front of children. constant contradicting/undermining. Does not listen to any concerns I voice. Simply dismisses them and does not try to resolve family issues (particularly those concerning kids).

All of the above result in arguing in front of kids. W threatened to call the police in front of kids if I did not leave the room (was trying to resolve via discussion with W behavioral issue with D7, however, this interfered with W's sleep schedule). In retrospect, think W is at that point in her cycle, so it could have been that talking.

Wheel of life continues to turn - W continues A with AP. I continue to do brunt of work around the house and with kids while W enjoys fruits of my labors. Kids learn to play parent off of parent.

At least I had all three kids today for snow day. Had great time. No confusion, they knew what was expected of them and were as good as gold

feel that have been doing decent job detaching (as well as one can with Three kids and living in same house). Have not really been able to come up with any boundaries with teeth. Have also not been able to show W the person she fell in love with/that I've changed since we generally have no communication and those we have are usually as a result of me being pushed to point where I need to speak up re her handling of kids which generally result in an argument due to her lack of respect/lack of addressing the issue. In W's eyes any issue I raise re kids is seen either as an attempt to control her or really a non-issue raised due to alleged OCD on my behalf. W seems to have no interest in resolving any issues whether it be kids or MR/D. W says yesterday - I am exhausted - picked up kids early and watched same for 4 hour. I am thinking who the he1l do you think will be watching them for multiple 24 hour periods? Crazy.

Having difficult time getting over the amount of vitriol & nastiness coming from W. Like I don't even know her. I said to W morning after we had latest argument - what alien stole my W and who is this stranger in the bed next to me.


M: 13
D:2
S:5
D:7
BD:1.5.15