This need not be the end.

[Barry]

I can't believe I find myself in this position but I now have to file against W.
I don't want to, I HAVE to. It's the only way I can get the consent agreement drawn up so that she can't come back for more upon D. I called W last night to tell her that was what I had to do. We didn't argue this time, we just talked.

I told W that I can't trust her word now. Even though I want to, I can't, I said that she didn't know where she'll be in just under 2 years and I can't run the risk of her changing her mind (or having it changed by other people). So I'll file, she said this is what she wants, she's not bothered that I'm filing for unreasonable behaviour.

I'm still working on the money side of things but it looks like it will be possible to do once I've sorted a few issues out. Apart from my mortgage, I'll be debt free and be paying less than I am now (admittedly for longer). I get most of the equity, my home back and two of my kids living with me. It's not the best outcome or what I wanted but it's the next best thing.

I did tell W that I was sorry that it had come to this, and that I wish her no harm. I asked her if she agreed that we'd had a good life together for the most part and she said yes we had. She just doesn't want it any more. I don't have to like that but I do have to accept it as painful as it is.

So we'll be divorced. Despite that, I told her that I'd never close the door on her but that I would move on with my life. I said if she ever had a change of heart and really wanted to be with me again, she should let me know. I'd marry her again, even after all of this. I say this because I love her still.

Damn you WAW for making me do this.