Thanks Sandi. Your feeling is right. I am testing out tactics and she knows it. No action and no conviction. And I'm not even doing the tactics correctly.
Step 1: I read DR cover to cover and learn everything i can. I've done enough damage talking and testing already. I NEED to hold it together.
Today has been better. Finally a productive day at work - I'd been spending the past two weeks at about 50% productivity moping and stressing (sometimes not even going in).
Me: 30 W: 25 D4, D1 Undiscovered EA/PA since 6/2014 BD: 2/6/15 Living together - in limbo