W has a few days at work from tonight onwards. That might make little contact easier. I'm experience 'the fear' right now that stepping back might lead her to get over things quicker. I know since I've read the books this is what I need to do at the moment. It's so damn hard. No so much not getting in touch, just wondering how things will.pan out following this. I know detaching is for myself as much as anything, and I am GAL, but of course missing your family is natural. I won't let this show in my interactions, I'm using my posts as a way to get out my feelings, but I feel strange imaging w living life with ny kids and im not there.

Edit: thanks starksy, just saw your post...your advice and help is.much appreciated...I know you're right, and I'm doing the right things I guess based on yours and others experience...Im just really tired at mo, and lonely, and a little sad.

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BD - 30TH JAN 2015
S - 30TH JAN 2015
PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014)
CONTINUAL TALK OF D
ME: 31
W: 28
T: 10yrs
M: 4.5yrs
D:5, S:6