Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

[susana4]

You guys are right. Thanks for being my voice of reason yet again!

I *know* logically I can't have any clue what's going on in his head and thinking he doesn't care is mindreading. I also know that other things could be going on in there that he's not saying - anger, resentment, confusion, any myriad of things. Logically, I know this, but my emotions are reacting otherwise. (Good thing DBing is about not acting on emotions!)

I am so happy I didn't have a meltdown. I definitely would not have been able to not react to my anger in the past, and H would have had to bear the brunt of my bad mood. I honestly don't think I even realised, pre DB, that it was POSSIBLE to be this angry and not react. Wow!

Actually, your sitch has improved over the past few weeks and I think you are being impatient with how slow this is moving to your taste. Right?

Yes, true, good point, I am getting impatient. I guess there's also the pessimistic part of me (and I have always been pessimistic, but one of my life goals is to be more optimistic) that wonders whether it is improving at all. I guess there is just this part of me going "hmm, I feel like the sitch has been improving, am I imagining things?"


PMS is SO not helpful right now. But Toots, I am happily in my PJ's and going to enjoy some downtime tonight. :-) Easy night in - some leftovers, some chocolate and some sitcoms (and maybe I'll make myself some stovetop popcorn in a bit). Yay!

H texted me from the airport to say thank you for the leftover curry he took (not sure why as he helped make it too!) and I just responded with a brief message wishing him a good trip. Not going to text him during his trip so I think we will have a few days of NC which frankly should be good for my chilling out efforts.