I've been exercising and walking more when I get blue, doesnt help if like today Im in office or have a stacked sheet of conferences but Its probably helping my fitness level.
Nothing else on the GAL as yet I think its because Im in an uncomfortable gap between trendy young things and the crumbly zone around here (80+) 40+ something activities are all the uber expensive things around here like yachting or for the want to be super fit like windsurfing and landboarding. The more, fitness and financially challenged, like me seem to be left with eating, movies or couples / family activities which is a little limiting but I will find something!
No idea on s as yet, trying not to deluge w after saying I'd back off I then had to contact her with 3 emails regarding her ebay stuff, the last of which was changing the account to her email account and reminding her she'll need to authorise it.
Didnt want to lose the account really as now I have no history but honestly she built up the feedback and I barely use it plus removes a potential aspect of pursuit as her inbox fills up with emails from me forwarded on from ebay!
Last contact I had with w yesterday was a calm one asking had she had a nice dinner (so busy extracting s from video games and I was so bushed I forgot to ask) and saying if I didnt hear from her I would be around saturday morning to pick up s.
I would love to email, text or call but she really needs to reach out to me next. Simply off the back of her comments in "keygate" yesterday and to stop me coming off as pressuring or pursuing. If I have a genuine reason to ping her I will but much as I want to tell her about my day I think I'll probably hold off.
She knows I want to reconcile, knows I was and am here for her and s and knows the offers for family days and indeed 1:1 dinners are on the table (so to speak) any more I do risks me pushing her away.
Have to say though, I dont feel needy like I did, dont feel down as I did before a started detatching but I hate, absolutely loathe not being able to send her little texts and emails like we did about how our day was going. If I miss anything during the day its those moments and the responses. Got me a little blue right now
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
