SATURDAY BEDTIME:

Excellent News!
This morning I awoke to hands rubbing my back, then around to the front. (note: it's still her week so I'm sure we would have ML, but playing with my ___ is just as good as ML and fills the tank up). She whispered "I'm so sorry for falling asleep". I let it go because, looking back, she had a very busy day, it's her "week", she was not feeling great and she had probably 6 glasses of wine throughout the night...despite trying to be flirty with me just before we got into bed, she simply passed out. I sort of suspected this. It's amazing how affection just makes the world seem "rosy". Whew...a perfect example of why it's good to "be cool". What's funny is that last night, I thought about what it would take to let her off the hook, and she did it perfectly.

I didn't need to say anything to her about last night and how hurt I felt...her remorse told me that she "knew". Am I letting her off too easily? Under the circumstances, no, because we had a big "talk" a couple nights before. Secondly, it may seem like she should "flip a switch" like I did...she's probably waiting to see how consistent I am because I'm notorious for getting "really into" something for short periods of time. She might just think that this is my new hobby. I sensing, her trust building up. She's reassuring herself that this is not a hobby and I really think she likes the attention. The date we had was excellent...she's seeing a completely different side of me now...she just has to see that this is her life. I guess I'm trying to get her "hooked on my product". Once she becomes more "vulnerable", she will probably be more motivated. Her guard is slowly dropping with each week. As she does, I will need to be much more responsible to ensure consistency because her "awareness" of my behaviors might increase like it did with me (make sense?).

Tonight, she was wiped out again and was drowsing off during the movie we were watching, I woke her up and put her to bed with a couple minutes of very nice, passionate kissing. I feel good but I just can't get to sleep that early. Every night, I hold her till she goes to sleep before I sneak out to take a bath...this is actually something I've always done to relieve my muscles when training, but I used to let her go to bed alone. Now I don't want a night to go by without being next to her when she goes to sleep.

On a more interesting note.....

I came home from a class I'm taking and W told me there was a surprise on my pillow...It was the little bag with the "52 weeks of naughty nights" cards in it! Note: She actually opted for this versus reading about LD and/or getting counseling....fine with me. . We did rock-paper-scissors where the winner chooses who goes first. I lost, so she picked me to pull the first Man card, scratched it off to reveal our first assignment. Hmmm, I'm not sure if I should spoil it for anyone by talking about this game. (Note to Hairdog, could I get sued for telling what was on these cards?)

SKIP TO AVOID SPOILER
The card asked us to write notes to each other that say what we want to do to each other's (bodypart) with our (bodypart). Like "sucking her earlobe with my tongue". Ok, this didn't seem very "naughty" and I could probably ask to stick my ____ anywhere, but we realized that there's something more interesting about the assignment...how do you give the note, when and where? I'm out of town for this upcoming week...the note could appear in my bag somewhere, or an email or something. It gives me endless possibilities of delivering one to her. I could mail it to her from here so she gets hers in the middle of the week. I could (but I wont) say "I want to wash your car with my sponge". .