If you want to release some anger, you could try rolling up a newspaper and bashing some pillows on the bed - when H isn't around obviously! I have done that a few times for 5 minutes or so and did feel a sense of release. I've also read that slamming bottles in the bottle bank or some aggressive exercise - running, punch bag etc can help. Also primal screams are good - in the car at night driving alone...
Also, I think it's natural to look at your H and feel some hatred - you're going through a lot right now...you're doing really well though :-)
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
