I agree that I constantly seek answers on why my WAW did this - why did she blow up our family? I've still never received one clear answer and her answers shift all the time.
Now I realize that her answers don't matter, she left, she chose her AP. It's been 6 months and I don't want to keep talking about it every time we meet. That part is over. I am trying so hard to drop the rope and detach.
Work in progress. Mighty your post was excellent and gave me a lot to think about as well.