It's funny how stuff can desturb you and the ruin sleep, or at least kill the quality aspect.
It's still looking ok for you. It's hard to keep hope and expectations low, even In Day to day life, let along things in which you have a vested interest.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26