Returning from picking up some lunch, I passed by another neighbor's house. This neighbor is part of the reason I'm here now because during one evening at another friends house, she admitted how her H was ND and how she was HD and she gave insights into her fantasies etc. I had told her that our frequency was just about the same. This made me realize that there ARE HD women in the world.
Anyway, we haven't talked about this issue at all, but when I'm around her (and it's always within the presence of our spouses), we have an "unspoken" communication going on that tells me that she desperately wants to talk about the things in her head with someone who can relate. It's very weird...for example, I made a joke having access to riding-crops when our D6s take riding lessons..then an hour later, she played a little "dominance" roll play with me because I didn't want to eat some brie (I don't like the crust). There have been a number of these exchanges. What's really scary is that I've spent less than 2 hours with her at parties etc. and she completely gets me more than my wife of 10 years. It's an amazing thing, completely fun, but I know it's wrong. Nothing is overt flirting...it's simply acknowledgement that we both understand more esoteric forms of sexual expression. God, if we ever got together, it would take a construction crew to clean up the mess...we would be so completely sexually equal but absolutely incompatible in every other way. And while my "shoulder-devil" says that I should get her email and keep having this mind-game fun, my "shoulder-angel" says that I should either avoid her or at the very most, point her to constructive resources. This is the woman who said that she wished the world worked in a way where her husband and my wife could play cards while we...ya know".
Why is all of this stuff happening now? I'm not doing anything too differently now than I did in my 20s and it feels like women are crawling out of the woodwork. Another neighbor told be that her college-age babysitter thought I was hot. Another woman said something to my wife like "oh, he works for xxxxx? Wow, I didn't think smart and good looking could ever come in one package." Am I giving off a vibe from the confidence I've gained by my excursions? I know that it's all innocent, that none of these women would actually act on this and I certainly know that this "luck" would be gone if I were D. But it feels almost like high school again...and the whole community is getting me "charged up". Part of my talks with a mutual friend had to do with trying to get the "collective female libido" of the neighborhood up. She's going to throw an adult toy party to do this. Wow...these are really weird times. In the past I've always tried to look at a big picture that these clues bring. I've been very fortunate in my career and in many other areas because I paid attention to "synergies", looked at some bigger pictures and trusted my gut. Hmmm.
