I'm glad you had some time away. Sometimes a little self care can help rejuvenate us and help us feel more relaxed and focused.
I had to respond to the "out of our league" comment. I'm older than you are and that comment still makes an appearance in all age groups I refer to it as "out punting your coverage." Honestly, I think many people secretly feel that way, when in reality, no one is truly in *leagues*. We just have people we connect with better than others and in the spirit of candor, sometimes we are attracted to people and that feeling isn't always mutual. Try to change your perspective. You seem like a smart, funny, caring young lady and I have no doubt that you can have the R you desire.
Hang in there! You are doing great :-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer