Need Help!!!

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Examples of controlling. Even though we were separated I would expect her to tell me where she was and who she was with. I drove by her house one even and caught her not being home when she said she was in bed. I never did mention it until I caught her the next week by accident because my daughter wanted me to drive her over there to get more clothes. W says she did not tell me because I hate the particular friend who's house she went to and it wasn't my business.

As far as the crying and begging we have been on an emotional roller coaster the last two months. First moving her into our dream home alone. Then that very weekend we sold our old house. So we had to start packing that up. Then I had to move out of that house into an apartment which we did together. Packing and touching all the things that represent are life together made me have a breakdown and crying and begging. Then the first day in the apartment, I went from a 4,000 square foot house on 10.5 acres to 1,000 square foot apartment sent me on another bring down when I cried and begged.

I understand were it does look like an affair, but I am still not 100% she isn't just trying to block out my emotions because I am such an emotional person. I sent her many love songs through email. I also sent different quotes from the Notebook her favorite movie. Plus I wrote her many apology letters in email form. I have not done any of that in about 3 weeks now but those are the mistakes I made early on that had her continue to pull away.

As far as going to the office I go in now when I know she is seeing patients, I do what I need to to and get out in about an hour or two. She will pop her head in and we will talk about D14. As soon as I am done my work I am out the backdoor without anyone even knowing.

I will be out of town the next 3 weekends. One going to visit family and two with my daughters cheerleading team at states. She will have time to either miss me or time to play since she will be childless and alone for all that time.