hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

I'm feeling lost. This is all catching up to me and I don't really know how to handle things. I'm losing sleep and appetite again. I have a constant knot in my stomach.

I am getting more uneasy as time goes on and she is getting closer. This should not be - I should be happy about this. But the timing and current situation makes me feel used.

Is it too much pressure to start talking about us. She does ask me what I'm thinking, what's wrong. She has asked me what she can do for me. I have told her that I don't want to talk about that at this time. I want to help her through the other situations without setting us back. But my trust is waning again.