"I did a lot of crying, begging, bullying, and controlling."

How? Again ... SPECIFICS. We can't help you unless you give us something to work with.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER