It was good to read your post above. My BD was in July'14, so I'm six months behind you. I still spend more time than I should thinking about H and our sitch. It's nice to know I may feel more like you do in another six months :-)
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus