I actually 'met up' with that same woman last week. Really, it was only to see if I could, but I don't think the random hookup lifestyle is for me. A few of her comments gave me the impression she was developing feelings for me and I don't won't to mislead her. It did prove that I can be social and meet new people though, which has been a big boost to my confidence.
As far as life in general, I'm feeling great. Actually, I have for a few mos now. I don't know what triggered it or if it was just time, but I feel like I've finally detached. W and I have very few interactions- mainly through email about the kids. I don't find myself wondering what she's doing or who she's with anymore. I rarely think about the A/OM/etc, but when I do, there's not much pain associated with it. Yes, there are times I miss W and miss our family structure, but it is what it is and I've come to accept that. To be honest, if W called me today and wanted to get back together, it would take A LOT for me to even consider it. I suppose I'd maybe give it a shot for the kids' sake, but I'm perfectly happy being on my own and making memories with them. I know that eventually I'll meet someone new, and if I don't, I'll be fine. I'm counting on karma being on my side : )
Tax refund should be received within the next 2 weeks. About a mo ago, W had indicated she was using her portion to file. I won't fight it should she go forward with it. At some point it needs to happen. Just wish it didn't involve such a financial hit on my part. I suppose that's the only thing holding me back from filing myself.
Had a pipe burst in the basement a couple weeks ago. Not too much damage, but will require new carpet, paint, etc. It will be the first home/room project that's all up to me- weird feeling.
Headed out of town for a long weekend to a cabin in the mountains (3 couples, a single girl and me). I had only told W a while back that I'd be out of town, so she'd need to keep the kids. She text last week asking if I was going to visit my brother. I responded 'No, just going out of town with friends.' She just replied back 'ok'. I'm sure it's driving her crazy not knowing who/where. I told the kids the same thing, as I'm sure she's asked them about my plans. Also booked a trip for the kids and I to our favorite beach town this summer. Haven't been in a couple yrs. It will be strange to be there without W, but my family is going with us. Should be a good time!
