Part 15 - a blue edz rising

[edz]

Oh and since I note I didnt mention it above, yes, still love w and still really want to reconcile. I was feeling that she was the one who did NOT want this. Over our last few meetings she's not specifically said she wants to reconcile only that:

She cant hit a reset button / switch
She had a lot of bad time over the past years
She absolutely wants to speak to me just timing (in tears)
She's not seeing or has seen anyone / happy Im not either / has made no encouragement for me to do so (huge change from last July when she was saying she hoped I found someone)
Thinking on going out to dinner just as a couple

We've also had small moments that Im really not trying to blow out of all proportion such as her feeding me her cheesecake, small touching, waving instead of just backing away or turning back and going. These sound trivial but seem warmer.

So, yes, if nothing else I know dating (others) is not in my immediate future and i'm continuing to stand. W could still drop "thing" though, we shall see.

Confused bear...