Complex No. 6 - The turtle and the rabbit

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So her father invited me for lunch again to share some insight with me. He sees it this way: W's biological clock is ticking, she wants to go back to school (a I mentioned before) and have a baby at one point and she's worried she can't have this kind of life with me bc I cannot support her properly.
I aaked him for his advice as a respect person but he doesn't have much of a clue either. We just chatted some about this and that and business and I reassured that I'm willing to work through this and I haven't given up yet and that I believe in us as a couple and that I have a clear picture where I want to be. And that I thank him for supporting our marriage.
He told me there's no doubt I would be a wonderful husband and father.
When he left he said in a very serious tone, I'll have to have a talk with my daughter again, find out what's going on.
Seems like he knows that I'm taking the high road, he supports the M but he also will be fairly neutral, bc he knows more than exactly that no one can control or change W's feelings.

My IC today was good too. She told me I'm making progress. She is observing my thought processes every time and I'm much better. We talked about things why I am who I am, family history and all that. But her structure gets a little clearer now and I can actually see progress on myself. Not sure if the meds kicked in, I just feel more normal again. In general more positive about myself.

And I went to a marketing workshop/networking event. That was great experience too. Learned a lot, met a lot of interesting people. On Tuesday I'll go to my first real professional networking event, kind of a challenge for me.

All in all I'm busier than ever and feel a little better. I am finally acknowledging that I do a lot for myself and I'm less hard on myself.

This reflected also in communication with W. Tonight she told me a lot about her ski trip and I shared some of my weekend with her. It's a baby step, but better than this ice cold atmosphere that was around the house for a while. The distance remains tho, which is ok. Can't ask for wonders.
I just feel more confident, it really helps me to just be myself. And my thoughts are clearer. I know what I want in my life, which still includes W, and I am confident, but with NO expectations. I'm drawing a picture how life would be without her. But I think it was Descartes who once said "If we think we can't do something, we can't".

Not too bad of a day.