Hi Joe406! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always around, this is my outlet. I've not read your thread but I will. I'm also far from an expert but one thing I have learned so far is we are not alone. I don't have the answers but I too have ears.
Have faith my friend. He will answer us both in his time. In the mean time we have to do the work to make ourselves ready for the answer.
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15