Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

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So...pizza was amazing, wine was good, company less so. Red wine always get me a bit down and moody, so maybe it wasn't the best choice of tipple. I don't know if it's the red wine or something else but I'm sort of in a 'why am I trying to save this M?' state of mind. But, I know by now this is likely a temporary mood and will pass.

H was a bit out of sorts all evening - was tired and stressed about money (he's always stressing about money). He seemed excited for the pizza but not very talkative.

No matter, I was excited about the pizza. And it was GOOD. I suggested watching Friends or some standup (laughter is good, right?) while we ate, he chose friends. Then after about an hour he said he wanted to put on Battlestar Galactica, which he's been watching. I said I'd watch it with him if he got me up to speed, but he was insistent there was no point in me watching, I wouldn't like it. etc. (how would he know if I've never seen it? I digress...)

So he started to retreat to watch it on his own and then last minute had a change of heart and said "actually let's watch standup together, do you want to?"

So I made us some ice cream sundaes and more wine (note: very strange combo, not very tasty) and we watched and laughed some more.

Then I got a text that my grandmother's ill and may have to go back into hospital so that took a more serious turn to the evening. The wine at that point didn't help and I got a bit teary and H held me. H not very good at validating though (clearly he has never read Wonka's validation cheat sheet) - he actually said to me "well, you don't know that she won't be alright"

I pulled myself together and we watched a little more standup and then he said he was tired and wanted to go to bed earlier than usual. He seemed a bit more upbeat and was joking with me while we got ready for bed and when he came to say good night he was very smiley and giving me googly eyes (in a non-sexual way).

But I just found myself thinking - what was the point of spending the evening with him if he barely spoke to me? I may as well have had the pizza on my own and then I would have had two pizzas to myself. (Ok ok, maybe that would have been too much...)

I know it's just a mood and will likely change tomorrow. I'm also a bit disappointed because my friend cancelled my GAL tomorrow and now I'm at loose ends on what to do. Kind of feel like I shouldn't spend another night in with H. And I was looking forward to dressing up and seeing my friend, too!