I know how you feel. The anticipation builds up, even if we don't realize it, and have no idea what to expect. We think we are prepared, but it' like holding your breath and not really being able to properly exhale... they suck it out of us. It leaves us bewildered. Exhausted. Spinning. I get it. I'm sorry you are feeling the aftermath of a "visit".
Let it out. Work through it. Find the source and start there. I am sure you will bounce back quicker and stronger.
You are amazing, Bright. You deserve so much more than an occasional drop-in. Keep doing you. You find your happiness!
I'm sorry that you are feeling down. Put one foot in front of the other. Those encounters really can take a toll. The unexpected is overwhelming... even when expecting the unexpected.
