hold on! - 8

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Just a quick update:
I am still getting an uneasy feeling about reconnecting w/ W right now. She is going fast. I still haven't talked to her about how to rebuild trust.

I talked with W about pursuing charges against, lets call him attacker. She doesn't want to bring people into this and bring it to light. Attacker is gone, she told her boss about what happened. Her boss runs a battered women's shelter also and helped her. I feel very removed from helping her with all of this. She said she would listen to the lawyers advice if it helps. She did not talk about her accident or arrest.

We are not really talking about us right now, and I think that is ok for now - I think I need to be patient.

I had severe nightmares last night - which I haven't had in a long time. I woke up and woke her up. She asked me what they were about.

I just responded, I would have protected you. She said. I know you would have.

On another note, my confused S20 contacted W yesterday to get some information and they got into another huge argument. I haven't talked to him since before christmas. He has dropped out of school for now and is living with his girlfriend. They are involved in some door to door sales program for money right now (pyramid). He is truly done with us and wants to remove himself from our lives. I do say that he is being totally unreasonable and unrealistic, re-writing history, and blaming us for a terrible life. I think I have to let him do his thing at the moment and let him come back if he wants to. I cannot chase him.

D14 is now D15 today and we are celebrating as a family. I am happy for some good fun.