Complex No. 6 - The turtle and the rabbit

[Complex]

It does make sense. Especially knowing that W is asking me to be nothing else than myself since BD. And as much as I want the M to happen, I have to be myself or I won't be happy in it either. Who wants someone who's changing just for you. We want a complete person, a complete and authentic character to love us, not someone who would do literally everything for us. That's boring.
I gotta be the outgoing myself that I used to be, without pursuing.

And yes my W is in my head too much. I started to accept it in a certain way. I am who I am. I work hard on myself. I'm definitely moving forward in huge steps in my life on the hunt to find my personal happiness back. I think I'm doing fine so far. I'm not letting myself down anymore. Things I should've done a long time ago. But now is now and I can only do my best from here on. I matured a lot.
And it's fine to interact with W as long as I'm authentic, string and calm and not trying to pursue. If I wouldn't get so nervous around her at times. But after many weeks into this now I know that NC and "grumpy, short" interaction doesn't work, but friendly conversations do. Just gotta be cautios, that's all.