Seperated, she is with someone - I'm desperate (2)

[vdubber]

So this weekend I was at store and almost without thinking I bought a book for W that looked like something she would really enjoy. I put it in D7 backpack so W would see it when she picked up kids last night from daycare. I messaged W yesterday morning to let her know how much money I loaded on kids lunch accts I mentioned the book and said it was for no reason, just thought it looked like something she would enjoy.

This started her messaging me. 1st message saying thank you for the book. She really appreciates my new found thoughtfulness and someday a woman will be so lucky to be the recipient.

This bothered me as although I realize looking back I had not been thoughtful enough during much of our marriage, the past few years I had made a very concerted effort in this area.

She messaged a couple hours later saying she could tell I had really worked on my thoughtfulness the last several years.

Then after work she messaged that I am who she thinks I am...I am kind, generous,honest, hard working, a loving father, a devoted friend, and a good decent man...and that she never thought otherwise and then she wished me a good evening.

Again, it's back to me needing to hear all of this and understand that she loves me like a dear friend or relative. ..as when I hear these words I tend to think if I am all of these things to you and you recognize how thoughtful I was trying to be then why kick me to the curb?

On a GAL note, met friends for dinner last night...a husband and wife who we used to hang out with. It was nice, we don't talk about us...they know my situation and how I feel. I was quite tired and worn out so came home and went straight to bed directly after.