After a very restless night of sleep... some more reflections...
Yes, I was wrong to confide so much in this family member of my W... But had I not done that then they would not know how many lies she is telling and as a result of them knowing this, there were apparently some expressions and actions of disapproval this past weekend.
Did my W feel hurt this weekend by all of that? She says she did. (Again, she's apparently much better at lying than I ever realized until recently, so who really knows...)
But none of this would be happening if she hadn't made the choices she did this past fall. None of this would be happening if she'd made the decision to talk to me about what was really going on with her and then seek professional help for herself as well as for us as a couple.
She also thinks she's in danger of losing her job because her performance is suffering -- which is a direct result of her emotional state and the lack of sleep she is getting (which is a result of being up at odd hours of the night engaging in a long distance A with someone in a different time zone.)
And now, as we get closer to separation, we are getting closer to her living the reality she thinks she wants -- me out of the house and us sharing joint custody of the kids with 50/50 possession...
So as of right now -- she is experiencing failing relationships with important family members, realizing that some key family members aren't going to buy into the fantasy with OW, is in danger of losing her job, is definitely suffering from sleep deprivation due to her own actions, and is on the verge of experiencing only having the kids half of the time and completely on her own during that time.
How much more needs to be added to that plate for her to hit rock bottom?
In other news -- I should be getting an interview soon for a job at the district. Might not necessarily be the job I am looking for right now, but it would get me back in and I can keep applying for other positions.
As soon as I get hired back on I can start looking for a new place to live so I can remove myself from the implosion going on here with W.
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
