Concerning the emotional side of things, I am just sucking it up and doing the best I can. I am not willing to take any drugs at this time, after the side effects and withdrawals I experienced with the AD. I spend too much time at home and alone right now since I am not working. I do not have family of my own and my friends are not around like they used to be. I'm just taking it one day at a time and doing the best I can. Some days are pretty tough.
I do understand why my wife left when things got that heated. At the time, I had no idea she was scared and felt physically threatened - we both were hurt, angry and yelling ugly things. I would never hit/hurt her. What I do not understand is why she went so far as to move out without even trying to talk about things when we calmed down. I guess she did what she felt she had to do. She left during the argument, refused to talk with me, and moved out in less than a week. She has admitted (once or twice) that she "probably over-reacted".
Most of the time, we seem to be doing just fine; we get along well, are affectionate and enjoy each other's company. Then some days, things get all intense and uncomfortable and feel like they are falling apart, and I just don't know what to think. Is this up & down fairly common at this point?
Me: 53, Wife: 49 Separated November 24, 2014 I think we are piecing. She wants to stay married/committed & LAT (Living Apart, Together)
