Is it really to late? Who knows....

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Thanks Mahhhty.

I think GAL is helping...at least helping me feel more in control of my life. Don't think I'm detached at all.

I'm in limbo right now and although I was a mess about it a week ago I'm ok with it for now. I need to continue to have patience. I don't know if he'll ever decide to work on our M or if we'll ever be able to have a M that we both want to be in where we both feel loved but until I'm ready for it to be over I have to continue to have patience, patience and more patience. It would be great if he would communicate but that isn't happening.

Friday night my game got cancelled when I was on my way there, when I got home he said he was thinking about going to a sports pub. We ended up going and having a couple of beers and some wings. I think I need to relax, I'm so worried about "not being the same negative person" he thinks I am and I get so caught up in "should I say this or that" what can we talk about that we can connect on....I'm putting too much pressure on myself. Anybody out there have any advice oh what I could or should be doing in this state of limbo I'm open to suggestions!

BIL stopped by last night, we were talking about people from our hometown and he brought up somebody and her situation and what her name was on facebook (she's divorced and with somebody else but kept her married name on FB) made a comment sarcastically "it's on facebook so it must be true" and laughed. Here's me thinking about him changing his relationship status to single on FB yet he is still married. WTH?? Oh well, I'm trying to stop asking the why questions but somethings just make me LOL! Looked in a mirror lately!

Photography class, IC appt, hopefully back to running this week and D13 has an out of town tournament this weekend. Oh, and a hair appt! Trying to see what else I can add to my week!