It explains why I felt judged and harrased, because h was completely jackal even when saying it's only done to help you was jackal.

It's why I exploded and in my head could hear all h scripts as my inner educator.
I had no rights to any feelings I had to justify why I even had them. H expected I could switch them off and provided forgiveness and say "sorry" issue ended.

It was all punishment, it certainly felt like it. H is still looking for leavers and punishments via his L, to control.

Sigh, it's not working, but he canot see that.

M 46 h54
Both married before
T 11y
Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads!
Ms 18 hs 26