hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

The car needed to be moved from the impound or the costs would escalate. She told me she remembered the officer said it was leaking some fluid, so I assume it cannot be driven. We went to the impound lot and see the car - she is lucky to be alive, the car is destroyed. She starts sobbing again and I just told her how thankful I am that she is here and not hurt. She didn't even know the car was in this condition, she said she didn't look at it.

We rented a car (that is when it hit her that she doesn't even have a license right now and what is she going to do - I did not hit her with the reality of what can happen). We went back home, talked a little and she slept - cried a lot and was still very confused about things. I made some calls and did some research and updated her on what I learned when she woke up. I know I am taking care of her too much.

She told me that she doesn't want to tell the kids and asked me if I had. I said I hadn't but we need to discuss that. (I am not going to lie to them - I wont, and what if they find out from someone else, this could be in the newspaper someday for all I know. I will not lose the trust of my other two kids.

This morning, we got up and didn't discuss this - went to pick up some food for the kids breakfast, came home and I asked her who is this animal that would do this to another person. She told me what she knew about him. She doesn't want to do anything about the assault because he is gone. If he stayed, she would. I am leaving this up to her.

Yesterday, when she asked me why I didn't sleep, I did tell her that this was the second time in my whole life that I actually wanted to kill another person. She cried and said she was sorry to put me through all of this. I think she knows who the other person is.

That's where we are right now, I did not talk to her about NC with the OM or a letter or transparency or R or anything like that. This situation is much more important right now and I can wait.