Sweetie, you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Trust in that. The anger, the sadness, the not understanding..all of it is part of the process.
When I was going through this, I remember one day thinking...today I am going to choose joy. Not happiness, because that is fleeting..but joy.
for that day, I found joy in the simplest things. In my son, my niece and nephew, my home. I found it in a funny tv show and outside in nature.
It was fleeting at the time. But, I tried to remember that feeling. Because that was the feeling I was working towards. Feeling that each day. That was the goal.
So, get angry. Throw something, hit something, scream at the top of your lungs. Get it out. And cry some..big gulping tears.
Afterwards, do something nice for yourself..read a book, take a bath.
You feel how you do. There are no wrong feelings. Its what we do with them that matters, M.
Its a sad thing this. It really is. But you wont always feel as you do now. You wont feel the raw, searing pain. It will be replaced one day with a small ache from time to time
But you gotta get through this stuff to get to there. And you will. I know it without a doubt.
He isnt worthy of you, my friend. She cant shine your shoes.
Doesnt make it hurt less knowing that now, I know.
You are gonna be fine, my friend. Better than fine. You just have to get through the mud.
You know how you do that? You stop fighting it. You walk through it in measured steps. One moment at a time sometimes. Taking small breaks and regrouping. Til one day..you are on the other side.
Keep taking those steps, Mighty. One foot in front of the other. You will have backslides til one day when you back up, its to take a giant leap over a puddle.
