Part 15 - a blue edz rising

[edz]

Hi gg yup go out at weekends too was at the beach freezing by beejeesits off a little earlier, most of my existing friends dropped away with w as they seem happy to ping me on fb but less keen to be seen siding with me for want of a better term, heyho. Big problem I have is the whole married men in their 40s doing things outside their circle so I'm almost at square one new location new friend base etc but trying..I'm not good at it though..I will get better.

No iPhone here s3 android rooted of course. Can set a silent tone and have thought about doing it I run the risk of missing something to do with s though. Often these text sessions start on something to do with s and then continue. I like them and dont want to stop of course so I make my life harder for myself. But I can hardly complain that this is hurting me and choose to do nothing about it I just need to act to slow down the responses unless they're s related it would seem.

I have raised this with w that I'm not trying to distance her before but that i m just getting on and she needs to tell me what she wants. Trouble is how far am I willing to go with getting on? It seems I'm on elastic and though detatchment and worry are not too bad nowadays this is still a problem for me and she can impact my mood whilst reassuring herself. Mmm self control (oh goodie more of it) from me it seems is needed.