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Hi v

I know I'm on number 15 now too obviously journal a lot or waffle as its otherwise known!

I'm honestly, truly envious of your ability to gal I'm not good at it,toots has been giving me a well deserved prod with a pointy stick on my thread about it. I find it very very difficult you are inspiring.

I'm nothing like your h in any way bar one thing chiming. I was in unrecognised depression the last few years, I dont blame w but her actions contributed to my state, but I do recognise the feeling of abandonment when its not really there. I did feel that sometimes with w when at any point I could have got off my behind which was increasing in width at an alarming rate and joined her and s. Its a crippling feeling of not wanting to do whatever it is and at the same time feeling unwanted.

Now I'm not saying h is feeling that as hes doing all this, sorry, jerky stuff as well on going to the pub etc etc and I'm not getting into the horrid verbal stuff.

I'm not suggesting you suggest anything but with a dinner could you both go somewhere together, get out of the environment and somewhere he can't complain about the wrong bacon or cooking dishes or do you think in his present frame it wouldnt make a difference?