Part 15 - a blue edz rising

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Thanks toots youre right of course. Therin is the problem though there are financial restrictions I really do have but a lot is a useful excuse. What makes me happy is being home warm and in semi hibernation and I know it I also know it causes a lot of my issues and I need to control it, sometimes is ok but not all the time.

The issue is I dont really seem to know what I like, crowds disturb me immensely, small groups I enjoy. I'm not an outgoing sort as you say.

So how do I square this circle.

Yup I'm out a lot now but in controlled semi isolated pursuits still, swimming, movies, restaurants but all just me or s and I.

As the weather improves photography is back on the cards and I can get s interested in that but, again, semi isolated. Looked for a local group but no joy. Trying to see if I can get one set up on Facebook groups etc so maybe something there.

Couple of the guys at work wanted to do a quiz night and I said love to, didnt happen as we couldn't get enough players mid week.

These are all excuses and I'm continuing to try, problem is every time I think oh I'd like to.. I realise its another home based or isolated pursuit.

Its also as I've said fear, detatchment is one thing, making a first step to giving up the past 16 years another and I seize on those texts far far too soon as you mention.

Lots more work required from me!