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[Sotto]

Thanks Edz and V - kind of you both to respond....

So Edz, it sounds like you're saying 'wait for the right moment' - which will inevitably come, but isn't here right now - and then I can let him know that I hope our M can be saved and D wouldn't be what I would choose.

V, it sounds as though you're saying that I could tell him about the options I've been considering, and that D wouldn't be my chosen way forwards?

Lovely and sunny here, I'm cooking lunch for the parents today, and need to do a food shop first. Later I'll read the next chapter of DR and then Aqua Aerobics tonight. Working away tomorrow, so that will be a long day...

I feel in many ways I'm now a pro at 'distancing and detaching' from my H. And I really stopped all pursuit, with very little contact. So much so that he now feels I have a 'life of my own.' So if my aim was for him to feel my loss, the conditions are there for that, and he may really feel I have moved on - IDK.

I worry that my decision to leave the area at BD - made in fear and pain at the time - may make it much harder for us to potentially reconcile. My own chickens coming home to roost. I guess I also feel much less confident about interacting with him now, hence my re-reading of DR. Oh well, I suppose nothing is insurmountable if we truly want to be together again going forwards...