Old dog seeks new trick 9

[Old Dog]

Cadet's new welcome post is so much better now.

I was reading a thread about the stages of the stages of the LBS which of course fonts in anger. Post 2 by Lostforwords.

I don't know if that's where I am or if it's resentment a couple of stages later on, it's hard to tell. And of course it's not linear either, you can bob around on that Kübler-Ross grief curve looping back and forth.

I'll have a word with my IC. Incidentally I now have an appointment with an NHS provided IC just when I gave up on them and started paying for my own.

As I mentioned before, I've been reading Trains thread and Starsky's help on there with support from Wonka has been amazing. I don't get many vets passing through here but V I think I'm ready for some of it now.

I know I'm impatient to change but I also have great capacity to withstand pain. I learnt this being a passive aggressive, fearful of initiating ... well a whole bunch a things, and waiting for others to make decisions to which I had to react.

I still feel that fear but so want to do it anyway. One of the things I want to do is read my new "I hate you" list to WAW and damn the consequences. I'm not sure that's such a good idea though. It's more of a revenge, I want to hurt you now action.