Seperated, she is with someone - I'm desperate (2)

[vdubber]

Out GAL today. Took kids to get hot chocolate, went to a couple stores, and currently spending a few hours at a big play center place where they have been doing laser tag. A bit tough on me as I look around and see all of these families and the moms and dad's together holding hands. Saddens me that those days are over....at least for for as long as I can see.

She was supposed to go to dr. today to talk about results of the high platelette count. I am worried about her health and the way she drinks 7 days a week I fear for her long term health. I know it shouldn't be my concern as it's her life but I still feel responsibility and dedication to take care of her..although I no longer can and have been laid off from that job...got the dreaded pink slip if you will.

Last night we had a message exchange. She said she lives day to day with no expectations. She said she will always love me. How does one tell you they will always love you, yet make it clear you are done and have OM EA/PA in their life?

She had told me a few weeks ago that she had to either be an individual or die and she was choosing herself. I don't understand how she views loving me and a R together as her not being able to be an individual but this is clearly how she feels. I wish she thought about me and missed me the way I miss her.

Ok...I need to try to block it out and get back to enjoying my kids..they are having a blast and it makes me feel good to see them so happy.