I may be wrong. But, it seems as if this house renovation is something you need to finish for yourself. It stands as something you started as a couple and it seems to me that you need, for your own healing and self-respect, to overcome this particular challenge and finish what was started. I believe you will reclaim some of that confidence he robbed from you by moving above these challenges and getting it done. I know you will.
Then, the sky is the limit.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
