Look Who's Come to My Picnic

[bustingout]

((((((((Job, Cadet))))))))) it aways warms my heart to read your words. I think if you both very often as I navigate through all of this in my head and my subsequent actions.

The kids are doing great, thank God. They are starting to feel a lot more secure about their father than they ever have before. Our dynamics are so new - there is very little precedent at all of what our family was like because when He left the kids were very young. So it's new and exciting too. My boy is getting to the age where he really needs a positive male role model in his life and I continue to pray that H can be that man. For my D of course too- I just mean S in particular at this developmental stage of his life.

It is slow and I don't begrudge that. I respect it. There are times when I am frustrated but as i Mentioned- I work through it and look at the big picture of how far we have come in less than a year. Sometimes I can't believe it has all happened. Because I finally realise that I am in such a good place with or without H- I really never thought I would get here. I feel like I was absent from life for a long time.



Yes- OW is out. Thank God.


2b- there is aways hope. And this is the place where hope shines at its brightest. It is ask the place where you will be humbled to your knees and have the biggest life change you will experience. And it will be for the better. In a strange way- I feel grateful that I have had this journey. Not because i wanted the pain and turmoil of betrayal but because I never would have known what it is to live life awake and aware, understand true love and live in gratitude for all the blessings surrounding me. Even in the darkest and the brightest times- I wont lose myself again.