5mo pregnant H wants divorce or to see other women

[Mom22]

Thanks 2BHappy and Karma.
Its tricky. I really want to leave but I need his cooperation for the divorce, which is apparently necessary to get my mortgage. Bank rules suck.
And then I need his signature on the mortgage deed. Ughh.
All stupid but thats unfortunately how it works in this country. If I piss him off this could all go south. So I just got to stick it out some longer
He's going out with AP1 tonight, 'just as friends'. Yeah. He might actually believe it himself. He asked me to cut his hair (i always do that myself), and got very pissy when I said i found that a bit weird to ask when he's going with her. In the end I did it to avoid trouble. Im happy my friend is coming over tonight when hes gone.
On the upside our old ipad (the one i was taking) seems to be breaking. He said he'd pay a bit towards a new one, we could do it together. Nice since my budget is vry very tight. And our D plays a lot of games on it. Plus watches her Netflix shows.
On the downside he's again not paying me back the promised amount after taxes come back (tegarding his debt he has w me). Just €1000,-/1.200,- instead of €2.200,-) bc he 'has to save if he wants to sell his house to come live near us'.
It annoys me he still spends money (€70,- a month) on lunches out and still buys clothes (ok on sale but still), but continuously puts the consequences for everything with me. Ive not bought clothes in 6 months and I bring my own lunch to work. I go out for drinks (tea as Im pregnant) instead of dinner w my friends, to save money. He just feels he shouldnt have to do that. That I end up having to economize even more is apparently ok.
ITS SO HARD to act normal. I've lost all respect for him. Which makes me sad.
Sorry for the rant. I know I married him so its my own fault. :-)