I'm at the fertility clinic with my friend this am. I'm trying to be a good friend and this is honestly not something I can truly relate to. However, she was anxious beyond belief so I tried to make her laugh and also told her I gave them permission to harvest her organs:-) She shares dark humor.
S11's Pinewood Derby race is today (Boy Scouts). He did a great job with his car and is excited so I'll head back home after I make sure friend is okay.
Las Vegas very early in the am. Spa time when I get there. A 2 hour massage and hour long scalp massage. Don't be jelly:-)
X Mr GB moved yesterday. He sent me a text that (quote) "this all has gotten very expensive-the kids and everything." Welcome to the real world a$$hat!!! I kid. I didn't say that. I wasn't even sure how to respond so I didn't. It probably is a bit of a shock for him-paying bills, working, etc. His responsibilities were few when we were married-particularly financial. I'm sure he will figure it out in his way.
He did ruffle my feathers by telling the kids by saying that "due to his move, it would be harder for him to see them as much (ha!!!!!)". I'm not sure if this was correct, although the blatant lying to the kids is just a crap sandwich to me and he's trying to feed a footlong to the kids. His job is in the city we live now (kids know this) so I said to the kids "we all make decisions. Your dad wants to live in x and that's great. I lived their for several years and it's a wonderful town. However, he chose to move further from work (1 hour away). He loves you and you will still see him."
I can't quite describe it, but I feel a little...different these last several days. Maybe an internal change? I've gotten many compliments the last few days and I just said " thanks so much!" I've connected with 2 of my old college roommates which has been nice. I don't feel quite so....desperate for attention. I hope that feeling continues to dissipate.
Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read these diatribes. Hugs and positive energy to everyone.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
