I just re-read MWD's article Forgiveness is a Gift You Give Yourself.

This seems so sensible but also so far out of reach for me at the moment. How do you get there?

WAW just came in to tell me the cat is booked into the cats home for when we go to S15s operation and they have heated pads for them. I don't want her to talk to me, stop trying to be friendly to me: you just told me half an hour ago that you're going out ****ing some other guy tonight.

And yet you want me to be an 'adult' for the sake of the children. Well **** you, you selfish ****.

This is eating me up but how do you stop?

M: 57 / EW: 52
T: 21, M: 8
S: 18, S: 15
Bomb: 1 Jun 14
EA Aug 2014 I think
PA Feb 2015 possibly sooner