Thanks Guys. Complex, my H is a couple of hours away - both when he's at our MH and our flat he uses for work. It's never really felt appropriate to suggest a meet up. But I may well do that now we are due to be discussing settlement stuff.

I guess I feel pretty scared about seeing him now. He's become a person I don't really know, yet I'm still M to him.

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus